Since my last blog I've been taking care of my dad everyday, and I've been able to also see my friends a lot more often, spend time with my wonderful boyfriend, and take little Lilo on walks. All in all, it has been a great month.
My dad is also doing a lot better... He's been on physical therapy for about a month, and his mobility is increasing everyday. He's also eating a lot more, and slowly gaining some weight. His kidneys are finally improving too! Thank GOD!... that's a miracle. Another miracle is that his cancer is in remission right now. So, that is great news. He just needs to have scheduled PET scans about once every couple of months to see what the status of the cancer is.
I've also been doing some thinking regarding my life, purpose, and future. I've been realizing more and more that God brought this "lay-off" at the perfect time in my life. I'm re-evaluating whether or not the corporate world is for me... and I've been finding more negatives than positives to stay in that path. It's not that I can't do it... it's more about the negative politics, feeling like a number, and not feeling like I am bringing positive change in the world.
So it is a perfect time for me to pursue what I would like to do... and that is teaching!!
I'm taking it slowly right now... As of this week, I am working 2 days per week as a teacher in an after school program focusing on children that need extra care when it comes to language development and other similar skills. I have my own curriculum, and I can plan everything as I see fit... I love it! and I love my students, and it's so rewarding to put extra time in these students' lives... because they don't get it anywhere else otherwise.
The program is for about 10 weeks, and after this program finishes I'll continue to move along this path to gain experience as I go!!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Thursday, December 18, 2008
December Joys
Things have been great lately.
My dad came home last Friday from the hospital, and we put up our Christmas tree and and all our Christmas decorations on Sunday. It's been a jolly Christmas season so far, and I've been having a good time spending time with family, friends, and attending holiday parties.
I also just found out yesterday that my whole company is going to lay off all of their temporary workers. This includes me, and I will be out of a job for a while. I see this as an interesting opportunity at this time. Although I was shocked at first when they told me, I know it's not something that I did, but rather where the company stands in this economy. My manager also said that I will be the first person she will call if something opens in the future. it does make me sad that I won't be working with the great team that i've been with; and I know that God's plans for me surpass my understanding. I got some great positive feedback from my manager on my performance at work, and how they truly fought to keep me on board.
During my time off it'll be nice to sleep in, work out, and spend time with family and friends. I don't know how long this will last, but regardless, I'll be applying for jobs regularly. I want to find something that won't be on a temporary basis, but rather a long term position that I can enjoy working at day after day.
I'm looking forward to a great holiday. I already have plenty of Christmas plans for this week that all started from last weekend. It's a busy time, and i'm also enjoying the joys that December brings.
My dad came home last Friday from the hospital, and we put up our Christmas tree and and all our Christmas decorations on Sunday. It's been a jolly Christmas season so far, and I've been having a good time spending time with family, friends, and attending holiday parties.
I also just found out yesterday that my whole company is going to lay off all of their temporary workers. This includes me, and I will be out of a job for a while. I see this as an interesting opportunity at this time. Although I was shocked at first when they told me, I know it's not something that I did, but rather where the company stands in this economy. My manager also said that I will be the first person she will call if something opens in the future. it does make me sad that I won't be working with the great team that i've been with; and I know that God's plans for me surpass my understanding. I got some great positive feedback from my manager on my performance at work, and how they truly fought to keep me on board.
During my time off it'll be nice to sleep in, work out, and spend time with family and friends. I don't know how long this will last, but regardless, I'll be applying for jobs regularly. I want to find something that won't be on a temporary basis, but rather a long term position that I can enjoy working at day after day.
I'm looking forward to a great holiday. I already have plenty of Christmas plans for this week that all started from last weekend. It's a busy time, and i'm also enjoying the joys that December brings.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Things are looking up!
I thought i'd give an update on my life and my dad's health.
Although my dad is still in the hospital, he's doing a lot better. He's been in the hospital for a month now, and in CCU for two weeks. As of Monday, they transferred him to the PCU- which stands for the Progressive Care Unit. (I have surprisingly learned a lot about medicine, hospitals, and medical equipment in the last month!)
We were all so happy when we heard this news, it's a step up from the CCU, and that is good enough for all of us. Everything is happening slowly, but it is such a blessing to see less IVs and drugs and machinery on my dad. He's able to engage in conversation more, and his physician said that he has miraculously had a complete turnaround this last week. Praise and thanks to God for listening to all our prayers!! Since everything in the hospital system and in my dad's case seems to be as a day-by-day case, we still don't know when he'll be released. His surgeon is still waiting for my dad's health to be back to 100%- like it was before his infection- to have surgery. So, we don't know if he'll be released for a bit, or if they will just keep him in the hospital to be released after his surgery. We don't know if he'll be home for Thanksgiving...
We just need prayer for my dad's health to be at 100% again and for him to be able to eat.
Hopefully everything will be better soon.
Although my dad is still in the hospital, he's doing a lot better. He's been in the hospital for a month now, and in CCU for two weeks. As of Monday, they transferred him to the PCU- which stands for the Progressive Care Unit. (I have surprisingly learned a lot about medicine, hospitals, and medical equipment in the last month!)
We were all so happy when we heard this news, it's a step up from the CCU, and that is good enough for all of us. Everything is happening slowly, but it is such a blessing to see less IVs and drugs and machinery on my dad. He's able to engage in conversation more, and his physician said that he has miraculously had a complete turnaround this last week. Praise and thanks to God for listening to all our prayers!! Since everything in the hospital system and in my dad's case seems to be as a day-by-day case, we still don't know when he'll be released. His surgeon is still waiting for my dad's health to be back to 100%- like it was before his infection- to have surgery. So, we don't know if he'll be released for a bit, or if they will just keep him in the hospital to be released after his surgery. We don't know if he'll be home for Thanksgiving...
We just need prayer for my dad's health to be at 100% again and for him to be able to eat.
Hopefully everything will be better soon.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Daddy update
My dad has been in the hospital for about a week and a half and has been in CCU for the last 5 days, and they will most likely keep him there until his infenction is gone. He was supposed to have his surgery today to take out the remainder of the tumor in his esophagus, but that is obviously being post-poned.
Although they still do not know the root cause of the infection, they are doing their best to make his situation better. He has a team of 6 doctors/specialists working on him, and I am so thankful for them. He is the youngest patient in CCU after all.
Although the last 5 days have been an emotional rollercoaster, he's doing a little better today. They will not sedate him at all, and he will be slowly coming of the breathing tube... his breathing is returning to 100%. It looks like the sedation was helping him out the last 2 days; he is obviously a lot more calm when he's sedated and less anxious. That way, his breathing, heart rate, blood pressure, and everything else that has been unstable gets stabilized. It was hard seeing him last night when he was sedated; he was sleeping, but he could still hear us when we talked to him. I wanted so much for him to squeeze my hand.
Please continue to pray for my dad, we miss him terribly at home.
Although they still do not know the root cause of the infection, they are doing their best to make his situation better. He has a team of 6 doctors/specialists working on him, and I am so thankful for them. He is the youngest patient in CCU after all.
Although the last 5 days have been an emotional rollercoaster, he's doing a little better today. They will not sedate him at all, and he will be slowly coming of the breathing tube... his breathing is returning to 100%. It looks like the sedation was helping him out the last 2 days; he is obviously a lot more calm when he's sedated and less anxious. That way, his breathing, heart rate, blood pressure, and everything else that has been unstable gets stabilized. It was hard seeing him last night when he was sedated; he was sleeping, but he could still hear us when we talked to him. I wanted so much for him to squeeze my hand.
Please continue to pray for my dad, we miss him terribly at home.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
What Obama is writing in his books
From Dreams of My Father:
'I ceased to advertise my mother's race at the age of 12 or 13, when I began to suspect that by doing so I was ingratiating myself to whites.'
From Dreams of My Father :
'I found a solace in nursing a pervasive sense of grievance and animosity against my mother's race.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'There was something about him that made me wary, a little too sure of himself, maybe. And white.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'It remained necessary to prove which side you were on, to show your loyalty to the black masses, to strike out and name names.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'I never emulate white men and brown men whose fates didn't speak to my own. It was into my father's image, the black man, son of Africa , that I'd packed all the attributes I sought in myself , the attributes of Martin and Malcolm, DuBois and Mandela.'
From Audacity of Hope:
'I will stand with the Muslims should the political winds shift in an ugly direction.'
'I ceased to advertise my mother's race at the age of 12 or 13, when I began to suspect that by doing so I was ingratiating myself to whites.'
From Dreams of My Father :
'I found a solace in nursing a pervasive sense of grievance and animosity against my mother's race.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'There was something about him that made me wary, a little too sure of himself, maybe. And white.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'It remained necessary to prove which side you were on, to show your loyalty to the black masses, to strike out and name names.'
From Dreams of My Father:
'I never emulate white men and brown men whose fates didn't speak to my own. It was into my father's image, the black man, son of Africa , that I'd packed all the attributes I sought in myself , the attributes of Martin and Malcolm, DuBois and Mandela.'
From Audacity of Hope:
'I will stand with the Muslims should the political winds shift in an ugly direction.'
Hmm......... Racist much?
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Life, lately
My life lately has been a whirlwind.
Since late July, to be exact. Everything that I do, it seems like, is dependent on how life is at home. My dad's illness changed my family life so drastically. To see the effects of cancer daily, is draining. The family's moods are all dependent on how my dad is feeling that day. If he's happy, we're happy. If he's miserable, we're struggling to stay positive.
I believe others find it hard to fully understand my life. I can't go out as much a I used to. My friends ask me to go out and do this and that where they just don't understand or can't comprehend that I can't go out when the health of my father is at a place that is not stable. My spare time at home is very rare... we have visitors all the time. The only time that I have for myself in the week is spent cleaning the house, running errands, and cooking for my mom and I. Yet people have the audacity to say that I don't make time for them, and I don't "hang out" with them like I used to.
I am praying for miracles. Praying that ridiculous prayer. Praying for things to be back to normal soon.
Since late July, to be exact. Everything that I do, it seems like, is dependent on how life is at home. My dad's illness changed my family life so drastically. To see the effects of cancer daily, is draining. The family's moods are all dependent on how my dad is feeling that day. If he's happy, we're happy. If he's miserable, we're struggling to stay positive.
I believe others find it hard to fully understand my life. I can't go out as much a I used to. My friends ask me to go out and do this and that where they just don't understand or can't comprehend that I can't go out when the health of my father is at a place that is not stable. My spare time at home is very rare... we have visitors all the time. The only time that I have for myself in the week is spent cleaning the house, running errands, and cooking for my mom and I. Yet people have the audacity to say that I don't make time for them, and I don't "hang out" with them like I used to.
I am praying for miracles. Praying that ridiculous prayer. Praying for things to be back to normal soon.
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